Sunday, February 17, 2019

The Day Katherine G.’s Ears Fell Off


Paint drips down canvas like sweat, 
down a cool glass in the summer.
The colors vibrant in adjacency like the leaf of spring
Under the new honey of a bumble bee,
Sweet with the mirth of harmonious activity
The hum of the earth in a brush stroke
A melody drifting through a gentle breeze
Something you can smell in your ears
And hear in your nose
And touch with your soul
Drown in the sound until you can breathe,
Lost until you can find your way.
The paint dries. The canvas waits.
Something is happening outside.
Fibers and roots interwoven through earth
A tight chaotic braid, fraying on one end
The other well anchored, but the source
Of its stability remains buried under soil.
A unseen  tombstone, unmarked and nameless
Everything underneath wants to rise up
Through the millennia, bursting forth
From a slumber of gradual disremembrance
And dissonance like a bell that once clang
And its clanging vibrations are subtle trimmers
Somewhere in outer space
But now the air is still, or is it that we have
Not the ears to hear.


Leah and I wrote this together on a date night. I believe we wrote it just after we were married... probably sometime in 2011? Only minor edits made here.

Meanwhile

My tears, to my father, smelled like the field
at his fingertips in early morning light
that kind that doesn't drain but lingers.

He was in his mid thirties, a practicing doc
who discovered what his weight against floor
with his kneed caps in between felt like,
and I in another state, a baby. Comprehension
abstract and fuzzy.

Only playing in the snow was solace on the solstice
the way Antarctica can make you feel small and suffocate you
at different times, he was preparing for business
plotting the piling of money whereas I didn't even know what money was
or how it can delude you or save you or both at the same time.

It was a full mean year of skin cells pulled apart
at their plasma seems and nose bleeds
and dancing for no good reason except for sadness
and tunnels that shifted for all the wrong seasons
so things flooded immensely and dread wailed
like thimble thread that doesn't want to be cut
and so it holds on without knowing.